Long time no see

Hello haii assalamualaikum ^^

Kyahhhh its been awhile snce i last updated my blog right? I miss to write things that going on with my life sigh my laptop gave me big time headache. I cant use it to do my work okay. So now i hv to update with my ipad which is erkk. Weird i guess....

Okay today, i didn't go to school. Why? Hee well i ride motorcycle to school, and its raining. Hard so i cant go lah. And this week, i skipped two days of school include today keke well maybe im just too lazy. I should punish myself for being so lazy. Idk i cant help it. Lately all i did was lazying myself around. Laying watching tv god i want to wake the f up myself but. Uh idk. 

Plus, i noticed that i hv variety kind of sickness. Headache, stomach ache, i even throw up. A lot. Mehh its weird. Its only came to me sometime. But i can deal with it. My raya experiences? Sigh my first day eid spend by sleeping in my room. You guys should see what my face looks like back then. It was, HORRIBLE i tell you. On the eid night, i didn't sleep until 5 a.m b/c i keep throwing up. Eww all things i ate that day being dump by my body. In the morning after the prayers, and ofcourse my family continue the tradition *asking for forgiveness thingy* and yeah after that we went to graveyard to visit my late grandma and grandpa graves. And BAM! I passed out. I freaking passed out at the graveyard in front of erghhh so many people. And i throw up too right there. It emberassing.  I cant even walk which is my uncle HAD to back piggy me. I know i am soo damn heavy. And my family brought me too clinic and thank god its open. 

And the next day. Ahamdulillah everything is fine :> so now its already the end of august. Around 2 month left for my first sem. I really hope i will get a great result. I regreted it soo much for not study hard enough in spm tho. But it already passed soo i need to focus on this one. Keke

Okay thats all meh. See ya guys xx

intan

self reflect to be better?

hello greeting :) k i dont want to really greet anyone cause i dont have a follower to greet lol. but if you are reading this. hello and assalamualaikum :)) okay. tonight. it'll be a little different. previously as you can see, this blog is all about my rant about KPOP . tch yeah so today....

okay. so i was scrolling my twitter timeline cause obviously i have nothing better to do. and then, i found one of my unnie tweet. and i read it . it was sure a long post. its about an ex kpoppers. she write about how much she loved and adored kpop just like me rn.

and tbvh, i felt a pang in my heart. its like a sudden slap to tiny heart of mine. its reflect me of myself rn. subhanallah. what i did before. a crystal tears drop from my eyes. Oh Allah, this is how ignorant i am? all things i read, and saw. basicly its making me forget what i should do as a Muslim. no. im not blaming kpop.
im not blaming them because kpop are music which i love, too much. it is myself who letting me to flow way too far from my daily way of life. i let myself curse a rude words. and ship thingys. that is totally idiotic mind of mine, it is so wrong that i support their pairing. i dont support gay things. but their brotherhood just, amazed me :( and i can remember their birthday but can't even remember important dates as a muslim. there's no one else to blame except for myself.

i never spend any money to kpop. i never have enough money to buy their album. i do aware of my status. that make me more sad, and feel pathetic. after school i would sit inside my room with my ipad. looking for the updates. its like im living in my own fantasy world. in other word, i spend my time too much for kpop. on holiday i'll always sleep at morning. sometime i didn't sleep at all. i once put a lot of posters in my room but last year i ripped it of because it prevent our 'malaikat' to enter our room. again, theres only myself that can be blame.

"There comes a time when you have to let go of those who are pulling you away from Allah"-Abdul Bary Yahya. this is the quotes from that post. yeah its true. i've being a kpoppers since i was 16. and now i am 18 (in one month) im not saying tonight i made up my mind and leave kpop. NO. nobody change that fast. i'll try to lessen my time on watching them. b/c tbh im basicly spending my time to kpop too much. its like my hobby so its hard to get rid of it. even if my passion towards kpop maybe fades away someday. they'll always in my mind but not more than my Creater Allah swt. i'll support them. in proper and good way. the way that doesn't make  me forget.

idk how long i'll be a kpoppers. but honestly. we all gonna grow up someday. and someday i will leave kpop world. and leave my fandom as well. but i'll never forget any events while i am kpoppers.

i'll change for better insyaallah. not to the perfect one but to the one that i should be. Aminnn...

Intan,

Fangirl mode strikes !

hyeee to me :D well its the middle of night, uh no. its 3 a.m and i am wideeee awake. can't sleep disease lol.

k i wanna tell you something. not important but who cares? this is my blog so i do what i want. kekeke

EXO had their first win on music bank yeayyy :D haha it was, hm couple days ago. 

omg. i swear i have tear in my eyes when i saw Suho. he's giving speech while crying. it was a moment of silence when he cried. idk bout others, but i am touched with his words. and baby KAI  cried too. oh kay exo is a cry baby group. confirmed! im watching music bank on live streaming. that is when i cried. and then, i found the video on yt. i watched exo performance and the winning announcement again. tbh i laughed ! haha

k, i cried at first cause i dont really notice suho's derp face. and when i watched it 2nd time. it was hilarious !

haha. sorry Suho omma :P and today ! the have their 2ndwin ! ofcourse as a fans i am happy. i hope they will get triple crown after this ;)

k talking about kpop. i know not so many people like kpop. its obvious lol. and lately, when i go onl on twitter. there are nth of tweets. bashing kpop. of course its hurt when they said kpop is trash, useless, and whatsoever. for me, kpop is a genre. a type of music. idk why people hate it so much. i dont blame them. maybe in their eyes. kpop idol doesn't have talent. yeah. if they said kpop is all about their appearance, hmm some of them yes. some of them no. hating kpop is like you hate something that you don't know. for me.

they do have talent. they are talented. i don't think people can actually sing while dancing a hard dances move, except Michael Jackson he is a legend. but im not comparing mj with k-idol here. 

k-idol can sing, and dance at the same time. each one of them have a their own specialty. so why blamed them? hmm i really dont give a damn to people that hate sooo much, insulted them like they know them a lot. they doesn't even know anything about kpop yet talked like mr know it all. its not fair. well when i see this kind of people on my tlist. i blocked them rightaway. obviously it is a pain in my eyes. haha no matter how haters insult, hate them. they are still succesful. and got lot of money than all of haters combined. aha

so thats all. yeah my clear purpose for this post is just to rant. haha kbyee im going to read books rn :)

Intan,

p/s im reading The Perks of being a Wallflower, its awesome <3 blockquote="">

Comeback and Dissapointment

hello people hye hye its 3:36 a.m here at malaysia. lol idk sleeping late and stay up all night like this really became part of me now. i have so much things to do yknow XD haha no, i'm busy as a fangirl ofcourse  so first thing first, my lovely EXO boys just have their comeback today. and i was like, sticking to both my laptop and ipad from noon till now lol. so their comeback was. how can i say it in one word. its AMAZING. as an exostans i really proud of my boys. they did a good job. so basicly. we exostans waited for them almost a year, we have been through so much together in this fandom. millions rumors of their comeback but never true. and their constantly changing hair color making us puzzled and confused. the rumors of one member leaving the group. and when some of the members sick and we worried as hell. when some fans left this fandom because tired of waiting their comeback. so literally it is too much to say. so today at mnet countdown, exo comeback stage. they are amazing boys. waiting over a year for that amazing comeback stage is worth it. i bet they worked hard, really hard for their fans. yes, i heard it when some irresponsible people, leaked their whole albums, their dance practise. and truthfully they dont deserve that kind of treatment. they worked their bone-tiring comeback. they even fight with each other due to the stress.hearing that made me teared up. they are sweet caring boys. and when some of them cried. whole fandom cried too.  it brokes our heart. for those people who downloaded or want to download the leaked songs, no please think twice. that is not how we pay the boys for their hard work. they deserve more. a lot more than that. okie so that is my story about exo. and here's another one. lol im telling too much to you didn't i? hmm nvm talking to myself like this make me felt better. so, i'm already in form 6. and now we are having mid-year holiday. a few days ago. i got a news from my friend. a good news. good for her not for me :< my bestfriend got an offers to U. and she also in form 6 right now so easy talk she gonna leave me soon :'( /insert ugly sobbing here. before the holidays, we already checked the upu result and non of us get anything. now slowly, one by one my friends got it. and here i am. locking myself inside my room asking, "why not me?" no, form 6 is good indeed. it is the same. but i want to free myself and my mind. see more things outside there. idk why but somehow, i feel useless, i regreted it soo much cause i messed up with my study previously. i am jealous. some of them got the course that i've been dying for. it does breaks my little heart a little bit. im still hoping. but im quite sure it will never happen. what can i do? yes, just swallow the truth then. k thats all from me, my eyes getting heavy now. good morning <3 center="">

excuse the broken english :)